Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Stupid Internet Explorer

I'm having hate for my browser and posting this from my phone because apparently the latest permutation of IE just refuses to allow Blogger to post. 

So I've been pretty much half-assing this blog for a while now. There are some reasons for that, not the least of which was a slowly imploding relationship. I've decided to put the blog on hold for a while until I'm in a more stable place on a lot of levels.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

They're All Gonna Laugh at You

That's what the voice of the Little Hater is telling me right now.

I'm starting Couch to 5k tomorrow. I haven't really talked about it because the people I know are great and very supportive.

When it comes to exercise, supportive is bad for me. It's a pathway to crazy obsession. Crazy obsession is something at which I excel. So in an effort to avoid crazy obsessive, I've been quiet about the running thing.

Here's the thing though, the Little Hater is working its ass off to make me not try this. Because I'll fail or people will laugh or I'll fail and they'll laugh because of that. It sucks. I'm still going to do it though. I'm trying to avoid excuses and just do the thing.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Dear Conservative Friend,

I know we haven’t been able to talk in a while. Things have been hard for both of us and I think we have both spoken some words that we would like to take back. I’m writing to you with the knowledge that you probably don’t want to hear this. But I think it needs to be said.

I know that you and the GOP and its propaganda arm, FOX News, have been together for 15 years and I know that you think that you can trust it but there are some truths you need to examine.

There’s a list of things that you should look for within your relationship to determine if you are being abused. I think we should look at some of them together.

Signs of Emotional Abuse

Do you feel that you can't discuss with your partner what is bothering you?

Honestly, can you really express specific, ideologically based dissent? Can you be pro-choice, pro-Planned Parenthood, pro-ACORN, pro-separation of church and state, pro-comprehensive sex education, pro-religious equality, pro-regulation? Can you be any one of those things without courting vilification?

Does your partner frequently criticize you, humiliate you, or undermine your self-esteem?

If you don’t agree with them you are an idiot, a socialist, a fascist. You hate your country. You’re not really an American. In short, anyone who doesn’t agree with their very strict doctrine, as far as they are concerned, doesn’t deserve to be involved with them

Does your partner ridicule you for expressing yourself?
Go back and read the answers to the previous two questions and answer them honestly.

Does your partner isolate you from friends, family or groups?

Does it seem to you that people who used to be open and welcoming of your emails and conversations don’t want to talk to you about things anymore? Have they stopped responding to your emails? Have they even asked you not to email them anymore? Do you think that all of the people who have done that are just wrong? Or is it possible that you’ve bought into a concerted effort to isolate you from other points of view and, you know, facts?

Does your partner limit your access to work, money or material resources?

Yes, they do. You might not like to admit it but they do and they do it in the most selfish, blatant, way. Then, after they’ve stolen your right to protect your job by gutting your right to form and maintain a union, they give your money to their right cronies.

In protecting big business the GOP and their propaganda arm FOX News actively harms you financially.

Has your partner ever stolen from you? Or run up debts for you to handle?

Have you looked at the deficit lately? Guess when most of that was run up? That’s right, during the Bush administration. Remember the financial meltdown? Guess what that happened as a result of? If you said, gross mismanagement by the GOP; give yourself a pat on the back. They stole from you, my conservative friend and now they are stiffing you with the bill.

Does your relationship swing back and forth between a lot of emotional distance and being very close?

They convince you that they care about what you care about. “Jobs, jobs, jobs!”
Then they tell you that subject doesn’t matter. “If some jobs are lost because of this so be it.”

Do you sometimes feel trapped in the relationship?

I know it feels that way but you aren’t. I’m here for you. I have facts over here and logic and compassion and you are welcome here with those things.

Are you afraid of your partner?

If you aren’t you haven’t been paying attention.

It’s OK though. There are things you can do to free yourself. I’m willing to help you. You just have to let me know that you’re read. I’m here for you.


Saturday, March 5, 2011

I've been in a Fashion Place Lately

Clearly I haven't been in a writing place lately.

No. Lately, I've been feeling the fashion. My latest plan is to buy myself so truly fun, brightly colored rain gear. It'll look something like this...

followed by this

and finished up with this

I could also just go with a blue brelly.

I live in Florida and for some reason have managed to do so for years without owning a proper pair of rain boots, a rain coat or a decent umbrella. Yeah, yeah, I hang my head in shame. Well, I would if there weren't so many cute things to look at.

I mean seriously. How cute is this?

I need to own it. I'll also need a pair of cute shoes to go with it.

Listen up fat girls. I am one of you. I have some things you need to hear that maybe others won't tell you. I do it out of love.

You know those lace trim camis that are so popular this season? The ones that are cut long? STOP BUNCHING THEM UP AROUND YOUR WAIST! IT LOOKS AWFUL! Bunching something up around a part makes that part look bigger. Do you want you waist/stomach area to look bigger? No? I didn't think so. Stop it.

Jeggings and skinny jeans? Yeah, stop doing that to yourself. I don't care if advertisments say "We can wear skinny jeans too!" Technically they're telling you the truth. You can wear them in that they are made in your size. You just shouldn't. They're called skinny jeans for a reason. Are you skinny? Neither am I. Stop wearing them. It's not cute.

For the love of god figure out what colors look good on you; not which colors you like but what looks good on you. Wear those colors.

On a totally contradictory note, figure out at least one color that isn't supposed to look good on you and wear it 'cause you love it. The color of the raincoat above isn't supposed to look good on me given its melon/yellow base note. I do not care. Want!

You need to own at least one pair each of black closed toe dress shoes with some sort of heel, black closed toe casual shoes generally flats, brown shoes in both types, one pair (at least) of brightly colored shoes. Boots. Buy them 'cause they are fun. Fuck practical when it comes to boots.

Those are the fashion tips from Miss 'Potamus. Hear and obey.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Life and Its Relative Value

Oscar Grant was a father. He was a son and a brother. Oscar Grant did what a lot of young men do. He got into some stupid trouble. Then he got into some more stupid trouble. And he served his time, which is how things are supposed to work. Commit crime, pay your debt, go on with your life.

But Oscar Grant doesn’t have a life to go on with does he? He’s dead. Shot in the back in a tragic moment.
There are a lot of things that need to be said about this incident. A lot of them are broad social and/or political points that very much need to be made. I’m going to do my best to make some of them in a logical coherent fashion but while I’m doing that and whenever you talk or think about this incident I want you to remember two things.

Oscar Grant is not a political football. He isn’t some point to be scored in a debate. He was a man. This is what he looked like.

The child that he is holding in this picture is, I believe, his daughter. She was 2 years old when her daddy died. At that age, you don’t remember a lot of important things, like the way your father sounded when he told you that he loved you, the look in his eyes when he held his baby girl, the kind of person he was. Oscar Grant’s daughter will never know what it was like to hear her father’s voice, look in his eyes. She may form an idea of what he was like but that will be from stories. She will never know him.

That, more than anything else is what matters in this story; the lives that have been so irreparably damaged by these events. That’s what you need to keep in mind.
Now to the issues.

Here are the facts of the case as far as I understand them:
It was New Year’s Eve. Lots of people were on the street and in the subway. Lots of people were rowdy. Cops know that. Hell, everyone knows that. It’s just common sense.

Some people were fighting on the subway.

Grant and another man ran back onto the train after being detained, but Grant voluntarily returned to the platform when Officer Tony Pirone grabbed the other man and dragged him from the train.

Officers removed Grant and several other men suspected of fighting from the train and detained them on the platform.

According to Mehserle's motion for bail, Pirone confirmed with the train operator that the men detained were involved in the fight. However, this has been disputed by every witness who isn’t a police officer.

A cell-phone video broadcast on local television station KTVU on January 23 showed what appeared to be Pirone rushing towards Grant and punching him in the face several times two minutes before he was shot.

Witnesses testified that Pirone was the aggressor during the incident.

Additional footage from a cell phone was presented in court showing Pirone standing over the prone Grant before the shooting and yelling: "Bitch-ass nigger."
In his past, Grant had been tazed.

In the process of detaining Oscar Grant’s friends they threatened them with tasers.
More than one witness has stated that Grant begged the officers not to taze him and his friends.

The police officers bellied Oscar Grant, but could not apparently get control of his hands.

As a result Officer Mehserle grabbed what I honestly believe he thought was his taser.

He pointed and pulled the trigger.

One bullet entered Oscar Grant’s back, passed through his body ricocheted off of the concrete and entered Grant’s body again.

Officer Mehserle’s reaction clearly indicated that he did not intend to shoot Oscar Grant.

That does not, in my mind, change a damned thing.

There are several aspects of this case that are simply wrong.

WHAT THE FUCK WAS BART THINKING? Why the hell are they using trigger grip tasers?
Why did they pull those guys off of the train in the first place? There had been weapons found and taken from young Black men earlier in the evening but not from these men. The officers claim that it was confirmed that these were the men who were fighting but everyone who doesn’t have a vested interest in protecting the officers disputes that.

Why did the BART authorities act in the way they did after the fact, demonizing the victim and later the people who protested the event? Those protests were largely peaceful.

Why so many lies and attempts to abrogate responsibility?

Why, above all else, did the jury return a verdict of guilty only on the charge of involuntary manslaughter? While I believe that Officer Mehserle did not intend to shoot Oscar Grant the fact is that he did mean to do him harm. The man was begging for the officers not to taze him. After they had, as far as I can tell, already used excessive force, they decided to jump the shark and hit him with the taser too?
You can, and are in some cases mandated, to do more time for a property crime than the guilty party in this case will do.

Aside from the obvious legal issues there are the social ones. More than one person has mentioned the history of race related violence is San Francisco including one man, in the 1960s who was shot while surrendering, and several others more recently, including one person who was handicapped and in a wheelchair.

So, more than one person has had their life taken by police in Oakland. And a not small portion of those people have been something other than Caucasian. And today, a judge, as a direct result of the actions of a California jury told the whole world that this man’s life was worth less than many types of property in that state.
Why is that acceptable anywhere, ever?

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Dear Tea Baggers

You fucking morons.

Please inderstand me, I don't mean that you disagree with my point of view and are therefor morons. I mean you voted for people who spent nearly a decade doing exactly what you say you hate and they're about to do it again.

Soon-to-be-Speaker Bohner thinks that the first item on the agenda in the new year should be extending the Bush tax cuts. In the same breath he insisted that the debt needs to be cut. Um...yeah.

If you take the deficit we have now $13,736,760,770,420.66 according to the national debt clock. And you add $700,000,000,000 hich is the cost of the Bush tax cuts according to the CBO YOU GET A BIGGER DEBT!

Why is this math hard for some people?

So yeah, you are morons because you took the same lies and idiocy that got into a huge financual problem in 2008 and decided that it was a great idea to try it again, and did so despite the fact that it stands in direct opposition to our stated goals.

You got took. You got hoodinked. You fucking morons.